Dreaming About the Future

For those of you close to me, you know that this past year has been a time of reflection, joy, frustration, anticipation, and waiting. John has been so wonderful through all the ups and downs of the adoption process. He has been there to share my joy when a certified document is delivered to my door, he's supported me during our decision to move our dossier from China to Vietnam and start the paperwork all over again, he held my hand during our grueling interviews with doctors, police, FBI, social workers and agency directors, he dries my tears when I cry with uncertainty of the Vietnam program closing their doors to US families, he sits patiently through endless videos of other families uniting with their children for the first time. All of this to support my dream for our future... to parent a daughter together.

We've again come to a crossroad in our journey. Our new dossier is compiled, certified by the secretary of state, officially authenticated by the Vietnam consulate, and has been sent to Vietnam to be translated and matched with a child. Now we wait.... and dream of our daughter.

Daydreaming

I stepped into her room today
Knowing she’s not there
This waiting for referral
Is more than one can bear

But taking in the moment
I sit down on the floor
And dream of her here with me
When waiting is no more.

A little giggle fills the air
As I rub her feet
I place my hand upon her heart
To feel its every beat.

A song is sung so very soft
Her eyes begin to close
She’s meeting me in dream land
A place where love still grows.

My vision now is very blurred
The tears stream down my cheeks
I’ve dreamed of her quite often
Throughout these past few weeks.

Suddenly a sound is heard
The phone rings in the hall
Waking up I quickly pray
Please let it be “The Call”.

(by Tom Fisher)